Monday, December 28, 2009

It was a very Merry Christmas

This Christmas was by far one of the best EVER! While every 2 years net out to be our families BIG Christmas, this was the year! The house was filled with family again and the kids were all sugared up. At least we know Lola was by her projectial puke all over me lol. (much like the movies-true story) The tears of joy quickly came with watching the kids rip through their presents. It's funny going from one year to the next with and without the majority of family. I do much prefer a packed house with everyone, if I can be so selfish. This Christmas was everything I needed it to be and more. And I'm sure most of you would say this yourselves but believe me when I say "MY FAMILY IS THE BEST" ;) Here are a list of usual sighting at christmas;

• Uncle Stephen carving the turkey without his shirt on
• Auntie Jane's Candy Cane Cheesecake
• Rip and Dip
• Mashed potatoes (never Scalloped)
• The Ginger bread house decorating
• The ritual family stories
• Constant Laughter and love

Can't wait for 2011 Christmas when were all under one roof again.
All my Love

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Saturday, December 19, 2009


Have you ever found yourself saying... "Is this worth it" or "I hope this is worth it"?
Lately those questions are coming up on a regular basis. I have been and done so much with my life and my career. It's only till now that I feel like I'm asking myself if all that I have put into my work is the worth comparable to the effort.
For those that know me, know that I have been on this career ladder for the last 9 years. I have put in the late hours, the weekend work, even the 36 hrs straight... I have been the yes girl, the no problem girl for so long now that it starts to feel like your being walked all over. And no matter the leaps and bounds I have made in my career I feel like so much is the same.
Not to sound ungreatful for the success I have experienced thus far, I am proud of all that I have accomplished.
The past few weeks have been the toughest few weeks for me and almost every minute I am questioning the worth.
The tears that I have shed, the sadness, the numbness, the feeling like your spirit is broken... is this really what I want. Is this really the career path I want to continue on? And then I get a glimpse of a great moment when you present creative that your client gets so excited about and the rush that comes with a job well done almost makes it all not so bad. The problem is the moments are far and few between, the opportunities for me to have ownership are usually on the back burner to others as I am the bottom of the food chain. I know I am still considered young in the working world, and there will always be someone on top, I just feel like I'm running out of fuel and I'm almost ready to get off the track.

Anyway, this is what has been keeping me occupied mentally, physical and emotionally over the past month. I have not been myself entirely during this time and my husband has been the biggest support, confidant and shoulder. It's times like this when things are tough and your husband picks you up and keeps you together. And while my husband is my support at home, Dani is my support at work. She has truly been a great friend and I am so lucky she has come into my life. Thank you to both of you for pick me up while I have been down. You have no idea how much I love you both. xoxo

So sorry to anyone that has been feeling neglected by me over the past few weeks, I have been in my own world of worth.
There is no reason to be alarmed, I am not falling to pieces. Mostly this is me being up front and human.

Love to you all